Him and henna!

Hi peeps! It is the first weekend without my boyfriend who went MIA for 3 days already. I don’t know if I should be happy or sad. Told one of my friend about it and she said men will always be men and that I should not believe in anyone. That was kinda harsh but at least it made me feel better and help me to not be stress about it.

Need to study for a test next week and do my assignments and write my thesis but I am just too lazy too. Do not have the motivation to. T.T

For the past few days, my stomach had been acting weird. For example last night, after I had my dinner which was McD’s chicken nuggets, I felt nauseous and felt like vomiting. Then this afternoon, I was feeling very hungry but when I reached the restaurant, I felt disgusted just by looking at the food and lost my appetite. Had to rely on a bottle of soy milk to relieve me of my hunger. I swear, it is not the food because it is the same restaurant that I always go for a quick lunch and the food is actually not bad. Then, even when I am writing now, I am feeling nauseous and felt like I am going to vomit anytime soon. I don’t know what is wrong but my friend suggested me to see a doctor. I already had a bad experience with a snobbish doctor that said I was just paranoid and worried for nothing. And I am not sure if I want to go through the same experience like that again.

Oh ya, I did a henna on my right hand and it had been attracting unwanted attention to me when I went out alone. Like earlier when I went to have my dinner, alone, the waiter was hitting on me by complimenting my henna to start a conversation. This afternoon, when I was in the lift, an Indian lady talked to me because she noticed my henna. Then, when I went to teach later in the afternoon, the kids in my class kept distracting me by asking me questions about my henna. Duh, I didn’t it will be such a hassle.

Here are pictures of me camwhoring with my henna decorated right hand.

Pretty huh?

May everyone have a great weekend though I am not sure if I will have one myself.

XOXO,

ME.

Shits!

Another sleepless night! Too stress. Have less than a month to complete my thesis and I have not start writing anything yet. Is still busy collecting data. Have a recital next Thursday and I am not confident to play. One assignment due the week after and another the week after the week after next week (@.@). And I feel tired everyday but can’t sleep at night and can’t wake up for class because I sleep late. What a horrible sleep cycle and it only get worse. My dark eye circles and bad skin complexion are the result of this horrible cycle. Gosh, hope I can surf through this month. I am so gonna give myself a 2-3 days holiday after I submit my thesis final draft before preparing for the finals. Wish me luck peeps!

P/S: I will be updating a lot this month because I writing down all the shits in my mind helps to calm and relax my mind.

XOXO,

ME.

A lesson of humility

Hello peeps!

I had been feeling too lazy to update this blog but another sleepless night like this urged me to update my lonely blog.

A while ago when I was trying to force myself to sleep, memories of my childhood came flooding my mind and further causing unable to fall asleep. A certain  incident between my mum and me brought a smile to my face. This happened when I was Standard 2, if I am not mistaken. I was sent to a Chinese primary school because my dad is a Chinese and obviously, I was expected to received Chinese education. Studying in a school where majority of the students have both Chinese parents, I was an awkward student because I speak Mandarin with a weird accent and  was ignorant to a lot of Chinese cultures and habits. FYI, my mum is a Bidayuh (an ethnics race found in Sarawak) and with my dad seldom at home, I was raised speaking Malay, English, Bidayuh, Iban and barely Mandarin. I was not raised with typical Chinese family values and therefore was ignorant of many Chinese traditions and cultures. I can’t blend in well with my classmates because I didn’t understand the topics in their conversations and was teased by the boys because I had a darker skin tone compared to my classmates and I didn’t look like most of them.

Oops, I think I was a little off-topic. Back to the incident, there was this one time where I somehow managed to get the third in the class and my mum was super proud of me after that. Being a kid, I thought that I was already smart and thus, I do not need to study that hard for the next exam. Expectedly, for the next exam, from being the third in the class, I got 25th in the class. And everything spiral from there where my mum got so furious that not only I got a scolding from her, she told everyone how embarrassingly I became so proud of myself and refused to study hard and ended up from being the third to the 25th in the class. At first, I wasn’t affected when she told her friends about it. But after hearing the same stories being told for more than freaking 1 month to even strangers, I got so fed up and embarrassed that I actually told her to stop telling everyone about me and told her that I had learned my lesson and promised her that I will not abandoned my study like that again. For the next exam, I did not get the first in the class but I wasn’t in the 25th position in the class either. I forgot what I got exactly but it is only now that I realised my mum was trying to teach me a lesson of humility.

My childhood in a Chinese primary school had a lot of ups and downs but I did not regret that my parents sent me there  to receive my early education because at least I can read, write and speak 3 languages! XD

Regarding the recent Bersih 3.0 rally in Malaysia, I have a lot of says regarding this but I will write about it maybe in the next post.

P/S: Will update more often!

XOXO,

ME.

ABUDEN?!

Just want to share a hilarious video that I bet every Malaysian can relate too.

XOXO,
ME.

I'm a book addict!

This is going to be my last semester in USM and I am already worried about how I am going to transport all of my things back to Sarawak, especially my books. And yet, I can't stop myself from buying more books!

Was looking for Haruki Murakami's Wind Up Bird Chronicle and Khaleed Hussein's The Kite Runner but can't find them anywhere yet, but I ended up buying 3 books from Borders. They are:

1.

I know, it is a classics but recently, I am into classics. I start to think that I am not only 22 years old too.

2. 

I am actually very ignorant when it comes to the subject of Malaysia's economy and politics. So, to keep myself updated, I bought this book and mainly, it is because I want to know these issues from the perspective of someone who is brutally frank. 

3. 

I bought this book for a very weird reason. I only bought this book because I found this book in the fiction section of the book store which I found ridiculous and bizarre. @.@ It should have been place in the science corner! Anyway, as a biology student, I felt obliged to read this book before I die. 

For now, I would just ignore the fact that I will have a big headache in the future!

XOXO,
ME.

Tongue!

Hi peep! I know this blog is abandoned for too long and the last post was so gloomy. To be honest, I am not sure if anyone even visit my blog anymore.

I am still in tight situation but thank God, the prospect is turning into a better direction, albeit full of uncertainties. However, today I am writing not to complain about my situation but to share about this weird yet amazing creature.

 This is Cymothoa exigua, a crustacean that lives as parasite in fish. The most intriguing part about this creature is that once it enters a fish through it's gills, it attaches itself at the base of the fish's tongue and then extracts blood from it claws until the fish's tongue lost its muscle due to lack of blood. Here is where the parasite becomes interesting as it take over the tongue role and replace the fish tongue. The fish is actually able to use this parasite as its normal tongue! Wala, the fish got a new tongue and the parasite get to eat whatever the fish swallow! A win-win situation for everyone I guess. And apparently this is the only known creature in the world that is able to functionally replace an organ! How awesome is that! BTW, if you happen to see the picture below in FB, you do not have to panic.

This parasite DOES NOT cause any death when eaten. Like seriously, it is a crustacean like a prawn, so when you DO clean your fish properly and if you DO NOT clean your fish, you AT LEAST make sure that your fish is 100% cooked before you eat RIGHT? So, I see no logic of being afraid of this parasite, it is not even poisonous for goodness sake!

So, that's all for today peeps! If I see any weird creatures that is interesting, I shall write about them again! 안녕하셔요 and 감사합니다!

P/S: I am taking Korean language classes now, so bear with me for the Korean words that will be making their appearances constantly in my writing!

XOXO,
ME.

Depressed

Sorry for the lack of update. I have tonnes of thoughts that I want to express here but recently, I am too depressed. Honestly, I don't know when I am going to update this blog again. Maybe 'till I am relieved from my problems, worries and doubts that I am currently facing. Till then, bye! 

Weird eggs!!

Months ago when I was joining the field school, we saw these weird looking silky stalks with buds (refer picture below) which we assumed were eggs while we were chilling outside USM's International Office one afternoon.

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No one knew what the heck are those and totally forgot about it. I don't think any of us actually bother to look up and find out what are those those and if they are really eggs. I totally forgot about it until few hours ago when I was studying for my Entomology paper, I saw this insect called lacewing that I never heard of so I Google-ed this insect and discover the picture above. I was so thrilled that after so many months, I found out what are those weird eggs are. There are many things that I encountered during the field trips and not all of them are familiar to me or either to the program instructors. So, most of the time, we tried to look up of the organisms that we encountered during the field trips ourselves either by looking up journals, field guides and books but during the field school especially the field trip, we have limited source. 

So, the eggs above belong to the insect called lacewing in which it adult looks like below:

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If you want to find out more about this insect, just click the link above. BTW, they are also called the green lacewing. The name lacewing is given due to the characteristic of their wings. The eggs are arranged in the manner of that in the picture to prevent the larvae (hatchlings) from cannibalizing each other as they hatch. 

Isn't it amazing when one of your many questions in life is answered? I so gonna show off to my friends if I happen to see those eggs again. ^^

XOXO,

ME.